Today

I saw something that scared me to the core. I wanted to write about it, to tell you both in the future what I am feeling now.

A 15 year old beauty ended her life. She left a YouTube video explaining her story. A story that was heart breaking, a story that will change the way your dad and I think about our choices we make for/with you.

Her video was about bullying...of repeted bullying she had experienced. Individuals did terrible things to her, I guess their explanation is that she made poor choices.
Poor choices yes, she did...but I feel you should be able to make poor choices and learn from them, not be haunted by them.

I write to you now, pleading that you always tell us what is happening....no matter what it is, we can handle it together. Please please please, you both are our world...our reason for living. I know I could not bare for you to feel how that poor girl felt. Lonesome, yearning for someone. There is always someone, always.

We are here, we are listening...we want to watch you grow and celebrate the lives we started for you. Respect yourself, respect others, love life...love every breath, each one is so precious.

When you read this, the story will long be forgotten by most. I will never forget the way it made me feel....it brought tears to my eyes...and Poppy, you ran over to me and hugged me. Through the tears I made you promise to never let someone make you feel the way others did to this beautiful creature, and to never stand by while this is happening to someone. You simply said "Yes Mama"....I am holding you to that statement. Forever.